16. Normalcy

Might be because I am listening to "Still In Love With You" by Thin Lizzy, or the recent text message, but I don't really have a clue on what is going on anymore. I go to work, I go to class, I hang out with friends, but I think i'm in a crossroads where I don't have a true direction to go. Not a direction by the academic or work sense, but just in life. I've been single for over a year and there are times where I am fine with it, other times I loathe it, and then there's the listening to the depressing songs of Blackfield and Ghost Trio that trigger a breakdown. I haven't had one of those in awhile, thank God.

One thing might be that I miss talking to some old friends that somehow dissappeared from the radar and I wish they would pop up again. One in particular being Sophie, my French friend who basically changed my life for the short time she was here visiting North Carolina. I haven't talked to her in a couple of months and I wonder what she is up to now and then, I miss having long conversations with her and helping her through times where she felt like she was stupid and not going to be going anywhere.

Another would be Jaclyn. We use to talk, I know she gets the Hey's from me. She even responded to a text message asking who it was and I guess when she found out it was me, she did not want to bother with me, but why would she invite me to her birthday party if she gives me these negative feelings? We use to be fine then all of a sudden she stopped talking to me and I bet she doesn't give one damn. Oh well, I wish things were the other way.

Life is life, I guess. I just wish they would just all of a sudden appear and talk to me, but I know it's not going to happen.

Anyways, it's ok, not like watching the New England Revolution debacle against Joe Public of Trinidad and Tobago. Four-nil? How? Was performance by the Rev's I have ever seen!

Sorry, had to get that out. :D